It's hard to see sometimes

Food and eating is such a difficult thing for me. Anyway, today on the scale I was 156. But if I leaned backward on my scale it was 155. If I leaned forward I was 157. When I stand a long time on the scale the number creeps up. It is supposed to be a pretty good scale. Anyway....

Yesterday felt like a wonderful day to eat and I enjoyed all of my food. I stayed within the guidelines previously outlined. However, what I want to do also is to stop eating when I feel full instead of eating more because I think there is opportunity. Perhaps that is why the scale went up.

This, to me, seems the difference between fat-eaters and nonfat-eaters. Fat-eaters are greedy when it comes to food and how much they can squeeze into their mouths. I need to change my perspective and see that when I eat I am not getting something but losing something. I am losing how much I can spend, how many more calories, if you will, that I have left to spend before my thighs get tighter in these pants.

I am sorry that this whole blog is so ego-centric. Either this or fat and along with that the lack of stewardship responsibility that I have over this body. I am charged to take care of it as the temple of God. It is not an easy thing and I am a little toddler in this area so I have to journal this.

I haven't exercised yet today.

There are a lot of other things I do in my life than this. Let's hope so.