Sarah Lily

Today I exercised 34 minutes on the stationary bike, ran a few moments on the treadmill and stretched about 10 minutes. While I was on the exercise bike, I was flipping through the channels and turned to a channel where this famous star, I don't know his name but I recognized him, he was gazing and smiling and it turned out that he was gazing and smiling into this lady's naked chest because the next scene was of her leaning over on top of him as he then turned his eyes off her chest and into her eyes. The show split to commercial and I went on to the next station and didn't think more about that (except to wonder if they show that on regular TV in the mornings?) until later when I thought about it again. I'll speak more about it later in this post.

Anyway, as I was in the workout room of the Radisson, I enjoyed their big mirror and the fact that there was nobody around to see me. When I was doing stretching, I saw that my shape is lots and lots and lots better than in the olden days, but I also saw that I am overweight. I see right where I want to lose those ten pounds - in my tummy and sides of my legs.

I decided that it would behoove me to have a full-length mirror in my bedroom. While I was in the shower after working out, I prayed, "Lord, May I have a full length mirror for my bedroom and can you show me where to put it?"

After the shower, text-messaged my husband and asked him if we could put up a mirror and said where I would like it. He said that would be fine. I then phoned our designer and told her what I wanted to do and asked her for her help in getting the right mirror for that spot. I am waiting to hear back.

I think that the mirror will help me when I do workout stretches and exercise DVD's. Also, I'd like to get a better mat to use in the bedroom than the little yoga mat that isn't thick enough. I could slide it under the bed when not in use.

I also want to go to the dermatologist and use resiline and botox treatments, but I am concerned about the finances and the timing for that. "Lord, please give me wisdom and direction in this matter. Amen."

Now back to that man staring at the woman's chest. As we know (but I don’t like to realize just how much this is really true, because all I know is that it makes me anxious) men are very visual creatures. And they like breasts. And I think that it is all very primitive in the cortex, which it is, of course – you know, down in the medulla next to the breathing and heart beat centers (oh my gosh!). Men modulate these drives and are responsible for that – for overriding and redirecting primitive impulses and thoughts, of which, we know, they generally fail at (this may be an exaggeration to make a point or just to be comical, or to let off a little anxiety) but not all of the time do they fail, and for the most part can be decent human animals, I mean people.

But anyway, a man (all men, all husbands) is delighted to get lost into their wives breasts, which somehow seems a little pathetic, but it is true none-the-less. And, furthermore, God has designated the male of the species to have a lot of authority over the things in the household. Authority that he hasn’t given me, though I have tried to persuade Him, but He just won’t change the game rules. If I were God, things would be different, but He didn’t call me up when He was breathing life into the universe.

Anyway, when I was watching the movie with the famous star who was gazing just above the belly button of the co-star, after I flipped that channel, I went next to this other channel that had this plain looking feminist talking out of the TV. She did not look like the type of woman who allows her husband to get lost into her breasts. She looks hostile about the whole thing, and resents the whole idea. I know her well. I lived her once in this lifetime and I am not even that old yet.

Let me tell you about another thing that this mind of mine thought about today. The lilies of the field. They do not labor or spin. Their job is to sit there and look gorgeous which glorifies their Father who made them. The Bible says that the woman is the crown of her husband. Did you ever notice that most normal husbands like it if their wife looks nice? Well, I don't know if all men are like that. My father wasn't but my husband is. When I was fat, wore no make-up and acted like a self-righteous snob, do you know what? My husband still loved me. Isn't that sweet? But now, I want to live a bit further out on the limb. Get a little deeper into trusting God. I want to sit there like the lilies of the field and look gorgeous.

I want to be beautiful on the inside, like Sarah, who trusted God, did what was right and called Abraham her lord upon this earth and obeyed him even when it was to her potential demise. Because she was actually trusting God and He is the One who honored her and kept her safe, even though Abraham put her in danger and did not keep her safe. She was beautiful on the outside in that rulers took her into their concubines when she was old. She was beautiful on the inside. I Peter 3 says we should be like Sarah who was a holy woman of old who trusted God.

Today I ate 2 fried eggs, hash browns with ketchup and dry toast and decaffeinated coffee. I ate at 11:15 EST. It is now almost 3 PM and I am going to eat a gooey treat from Starbucks and water. Then I will go to the Louisville airport and prepare to fly to California. I will do some work in the plane in route and will also do some leisure reading and Bible reading, Lord willing. I will have the countenance of Sarah by God's grace, who looks after me because I trust in Him.

I am looking for a specific diet plan to take off the 10 pounds. I am waiting and trusting on the Lord about the dermatologist procedures. I enjoy being a woman. Just call me Sarah Lily.