Why?

I started the day in spin class. After 45 minutes, I went to a second class. As I viewed myself in the stretch (yoga) class mirrors during the 80 minute class (yieks!), I saw improvement from two weeks ago. However, it still is quite a shock to see the fat rolls. I viewed my body and analyzed from where I would be losing my ten pounds. Saddle areas (side of thighs), hips, calves. I was surprised how hefty my calves seem. I was pleased to see my flat tummy.

Dissociating oneself from ones own body is a step fat people take at some point. I had taken that step years ago, and now I am trying to reassociate myself.

I've been turning down all starch products for many days now and sticking to phase one of the Maker's Diet. I'm feeling stronger.

As my body is about the change to a different level where it hasn't been in 20 years, I ask myself, "why?" "why not just stay in this place?" I hear myself thinking, "you don't want to lose more weight."

Paul said, "I buffet my body and make it my slave." Was it Paul who said, "He who has suffered in the body is done with sin."? I remember memorizing that verse when I walked a marathon a few years ago. Oh my. I almost sound like an athelete. God's grace. His sense of humor. There's the elephant's ears, the girafe's neck and my body transformation. Only God could think of such things and carry them out.

It will be healthier for me to lose ten pounds. A loss of ten pounds will put me smack in the middle of "normal" on BMI and height/weight charts.

I give up these hopes and desires to the Lord Jesus Christ and ask Him to reign in my mortal flesh. Jesus, if it be possible, and I know because of Your power it is, glorify Yourself in my body. Amen.