145 & "What DID she mean?"

I got to 145 on my scale once, but it is now at 146 or 146.5. The process is as slow as molasses, but that is okay. I am going on this big trip with my daughter, and last year when we sent on a similar trip, I was came back at the lowest weight that I had ever reached, before now, that is. At that time I got to like 147 once, but psychologically I couldn't handle it I think. It seems to be a mind trip as much or more than anything else. One woman asked me, "You're not trying to lose weight are you, because you're perfect the way you are." What do you say to that? The truth is, no, I am not actually trying to lose weight, as in 5 more pounds is not exactly what one would call "weight." However, I am trying to be healthy, not be the glutten that I actually am, not to "crave the kings food" (Proverbs?) as I do, and not to regain weight up to a hefty 220 pounds. No, I not trying to "lose weight" as you are implying, like there is something the matter with me, like I have an eating disorder (but I do, in that I am a glutten who craves the "kings food", and am covetous, untrusting of God in and at the level of my flesh and I spend my lusts on my passions, which starts with a C. Chocolate.) No, I am not trying to "lose weight" in the sense that the whole tone of your question is like a put down. Sort of like, "You're not trying to be successful are you? Because being a little bit of a failure will make you and the rest of us feel better." Or, "You're not trying to have your mind be stronger that your body and your stomach, are you, because your mind isn't strong enough for that so why even try?" Gee, what DID she mean? The lesson I learned is, the one time I open my mouth a little tiny, tiny bit, a fly flew in. I should know better from now on.