Grace works

Nothing I attempt to do or help out my cravings or eating really seems to work (Overstatement - inaccurate statement: black and white thinking - catastrophizing).
I didn't make my “no concentrated sugars until 2008” and can't quite remember where I left off with that. Oh yeah, my son’s ice cream sundae that I bought and he didn’t finish. I have had NutraSweet as well, but not in diet coke or sodas, but they look so good. My rationalization is that in those soft drinks is where I get to drinking a lot of that crap and it is just bad for you and robs you of the opportunity to drink good things instead. But a little NutraSweet here or there isn’t going to kill me.

However, I have sort of made it through this week surviving and am on my way to LA Weightloss now. After my last weigh-in I ate some crap, but not very much. Then over the past several days I have been trying to carefully monitor my intake, fats, and starches. Now this morning is a weigh-in at LA Weightloss. I don't really like how I don't eat or drink before I go and walk in in a dehydrated state, with barely no clothes on to speak of and weigh myself after I emptied by bladder, but if I didn't do all of that there is a few pound weight shift that happens and then the alarm would ring that I was "OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED - OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED -OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED -OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED -OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED -OUT OF RANGE - VIOLATED" and you know how when you walk out of Target and the dumb alarm rings and you need to step back into the store and the security officer makes sure you haven't stolen anything, but they never do anything to the clerk who keeps forgetting to void the alarm trigger from the package you just bought? That alarm? Well, that is like the alarm that goes off in my head, and by the reaction (I anticipate) in the LA Weightloss police and security personnel it is the (silent) alarm that they hear as well. So, I go in dehydrated with no clothes (next time I will ask to strip down to my panties and bra - will I?) so I can make my goal weight.

The last time I was in, I met the goal range and the (exploitive) clerk asked me if I wanted to get back down to the 145. I exclaimed, "No! I am only trying to stay within the weight range of 145 to 150 so BACK OFF LADY!" I am reminded of the song, "The things we do for love."

Have a nice day - filled with God's grace and laughter!