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Life is hard. I don't wear a size 6 or a size 4. I don't exercise several hours per week. I help to run a hospital and work 60 hours per week. I am a mother. I am a wife. I miss my life that I had in some ways, but I wouldn't go back. I have opportunities now that I didn't have before. Later I can exercise again. I miss my back massages, my trips to the dermatologist for micro-dermabrasions. I liked finding that I was a woman. I liked who I had become. But it just set in place the me I am now. An executive that is feminine, a woman. Powerful and in control. Not silly. I am watching my weight And trying to keep it at 155 my scale but it creeps up to 158 which worries me. My skinny pants don't fit. Regular pants fit and that is okay because I am not perfect and can not do everything. I am who I am in Christ and it is enough and it is fine. I have learned how to keep weight in control and my goal is to get through the next two incredible years while maintaining the same weight. I typically eat carefully. Okay. It is okay. It is good.